Friday, October 10, 2003
if u don't love me why do u care when i walk out ur door?
come on la..
feli is giving me such attitude sia on MSN.
my nick is "still loving you. stronger than before."
if u don't care abt me... why shld it bug you when i rite tt?
then she go n change her nick to "everything i learned abt friends-they. always.change"
wat nonsense sia!!!!
then i dunno why i entertain her.
i type there " i never changed. im still me. still loving you. stronger than before. i'm just sorry that loving you hurts us."
ok fine.. no rxn. then after a fabulous n awe inspiring n reassuring talk with farahanah i change it to
"leaf departure is due to wind pursuit. or because tree never asked to stay."
i really give up. shld listen to farah more often. at least now i know i got her back during hockey. so best.. now got su n got farah to support me against feli. i dun care wat she says abt me to other ppl. my conscience is clear. all i did wrong was to run away from her. if she really is my fren she will respect my wishes. if she asked tt of me, i wouldnt be so spiteful. i would try to understand. sad yah la.. but come on la.. who is the one who is heart broken here?? her?? no!!!!! she dun love me wat. so why shld she be rite?? why rite?? why is she acting like i shot a big hole thru her heart? like i've totally corrupted her whole idea of frenship?
i tell u why. cos deep down inside she loves me. she just doesnt know it yet.
she'll regret it one day. when she understands wat love means. she'll regret wat she is doing now. cos she gave up something tt could have gone really far.
maybe im just a sore loser. so be it. but she shld be a fair winner. she should have the courtesy not to keep on making it seem like she wants me too.
oh well... tts her bad. im done with that. i got my frens to love me. n tt enuff. if i dun have her i wont die. i'll still make it. n i'll move on. cos love is not love when u are like a puppy dog fetching the frisbee everytime she throws it. tts agape.
best!
she just changed her nick to " i'm not gonna bend and im not gonna break. i'm not gonna worry abt it anymore"
best.
well at least it shows one thing. she did worry.
n i wrote back " i'm glad tt u are not worrying. i want u to be happy. without me."
haha....hahah...
i do want her to be happy la. serious. just cant be there to share her happiness. we are not meant to be la.
ok tts the end of tt.
i'm getting stronger everyday. i love my frens. foursome. su. khai.
--insignificant lies--
2:52 am
